I just want to be normal.
I want to be able to take better care of myself, and get dressed every day, maybe fix my hair and put on a little makeup.
I want to be able to control my moods, look at the bright side of life and be happy.
I want to be able to sleep at night without having to nearly overdose myself on sleep meds.
I want to be able to go out in public without having a panic attack.
Just a day in the life of bipolar disorder.
My life every single day. I hate BPD.
The thing about being borderline is you just can’t make sense of how you’re feeling. You feel so many things all at once, most of them are conflicting. Yet you cannot understand or pinpoint why you feel that way. It just happens.
Living with BPD.
I wish you could walk a day in my shoes, if you did maybe, just maybe you’d understand.
I’m NOT crazy, I have a mental disorder. It was NOT my choice to have it, so don’t tell me I have a choice to turn it on and off.
I wish I could be normal. I wish I could function day to day without uncontrollable emotions.
I wish I could look in the mirror every day and not hate myself. I wish I could have the energy to go my hair, my makeup, to look at myself and feel pretty.
I wish I didn’t push everyone away, even people who try to help me. I wish I did have such anger towards people for no reason.
I wish I could function without medication. When I take it, I’m a zombie who can’t even to daily tasks, all I can do is sleep. When I don’t take it, I can’t function properly.
I WISH you understood what it’s like to live with this disorder. Yes, others may not have it as bad as I, but even after years of treatment, mine is still not controlled. I wish you knew what it was like to be me. MAYBE just maybe then you would understand that this is something I CANNOT help.
have you ever just looked at someone and thought, my fucking god i adore you. i adore every goddamn ounce. i adore your bones and your soul. but I’m a loser, who just doesn’t wanna lose you. i can lose fucking everything, but not you. oh god. not you.
10 Things About Littles:
- Littles do not belong to you unless you are their Dom(me), and you will not treat them as such.
- Littles are little. This does not mean they are unintelligent.
- All littles feel bonded to others through their mutual understanding and likes.
- This means that littles have…